...Although I rather hopeful of getting some form of new job soon, I'm tempting myself with getting a flat/house share really either in Bristol or London. I think I'll just go for some kinda 'normal' job for a while and then do my writing in my spare time (Like I do already and have done with previous work)

After being so busy for a whole YEAR, I'm wasting valuable productivity time at the moment and it doesn't please me at all. Plus, I don't like not having a proper base to work from. Yes, staying with my brother is lovely but I'm so cut off from things happening!

I got a bit too drunk last night as well, nothing wrong with that in the grand scheme of things but must. be. more. productive.

I just need to DO something! Oh, if there's any new people around, see my website. Thank youu :)

I am not: always the best at staying still for long. Except when I'm writing.
I love: people watching, music and unexpected connections in wherever it takes place. (That could mean, anything!) ;)
I hate: ignorance where people argue from one side and fail to look at all sides. I read something that Frank Skinner wrote earlier that opinions are like plasticine. I agree!
I fear: (also, Emma) losing those people who I love in my life. I also have a fear of not doing enough, whenever I die! Ha. Nice.
I hope: that if I keep working towards my desires, hopes and so on, with enough belief then it will happen.
I hear: Norah Jones at the moment, some howling wind and the sounds of my fingers on the buttons.
I crave: intimacy, laughter, music, and passionate discussions.
I regret: hardly ever, I've always said you either do things or you don't, it's that simple.
I cry: unexpectedly at songs and occasional moments in movies. I think it's only started happening into my late 20s though. It's all to do with happiness and hope though!
I care: about being positive. About friends and family. And trying to achieve something good in my (this, one and only!) life.
I always: am amused in the wrong situations. People at train stations who try and look like they know what they doing, people who *sigh* in queues - what's it supposed to achieve -, just live! Smile!
I believe: that I have met certain people in my life, exactly when I needed to and without them. I don't know what I would have done at all. You're my personal lifesavers and one day, I'll write you each.
I feel alone: sometimes in the busiest of places.
I listen: to music all the time. Whenever I can. 
I hide: until I work out what the situation is. But I do probably just talk about anything and everything a few select, lovely people.
I drive: myself into frustration sometimes, when I'm utterly underachieving with my time. (Shh at this meme though ;P)
I sing: an awful lot and I think I don't really know I'm doing it!
I dance: in my room but I've discovered that a lot of real ale or vodka also means I kinda take the dance floor on, a liiiittle too over-excitedly.
I write: every day of my life, since I was 14 or so. Whether that take the form of opinion or poetry. Everything goes.
I play: with myse....ooh...haha! The fool when I want to entertain myself.
I miss: love from time to time, that's just at the moment though. I currently also miss a steady/any proper income.
I search: for solutions to problems constantly and for ways to make myself better, more understanding of the world and more educated of everything I can get my paws on.
I learn: as much as I can as often as I can, actually, I think I wish I did more.
I feel: that I really do love life, I'm very lucky and more people should accept that life isn't just about everyone else around them or what they think or do but that's it's also massively about 'you' and what you can do, can be amazing.
I know: that singing makes my soul and heart rise and fall in love with every word. I also know that if I keep on, eventually, eventually something good will come. There's no time limit. Start today. ;)
I say: a lot to myself out loud these days. I also talk a lot after a drink. I aalso talk more to people I know but watch and work out others before engaging randomly with new people or new groups.
I succeed: more than I believe I do.
I dream: passionately. Ha.
I wonder: a lot, about everything that's possible, things that aren't and if I should talk more to random people.
I want: to get a job soon please. After a year of constant work, I'm utterly bored. However, this week has been blinking bizarre!
I have: a glass of water and a flutter for eventuality.
I give: my empathy to those I think need an extra ear. And I love doing it and want/need absolutely nothing back.
I fell: in love a while ago. Right now, I'm re-aligning my decisions and thoughts.
I fight: for what's right in the right situations.
I need: a good balance between solitude and companionship in order to be happy. (Kept this one as well!)

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And send ideas, thoughts, suggestions, I'd like to get a lot into the hour possibly! 

 You know when you apply for something and then kind of forget? Well, I've 'won' something which is a bit mad and very, very arty. I've won a place on the plinth at Trafalgar Square for an hour as part of a new project by Anthony Gormley.

Over 100 days, 2,400 people will stand on it for one hour for each hour, to do what they want. Here's the man himself to explain:


So, yeah, now I have to think of something to do!!!!

I do some bloody random things, don't I, lol! 

 A good friend of mine has this music up currently, she's ace! :)

http://www.myspace.com/hokumusic

Go find and enjoy, it's perfect sun music and pick any track!

Rock On! I have to say...I also like to try and do his voice, Patrick Stewart is a legend! Also, his episode of Extras is possibly my favourite...genius.

Your results:
You are Jean-Luc Picard

Jean-Luc Picard 70% Spock 62% James T. Kirk (Captain) 60% Uhura 60% Will Riker 55% Deanna Troi 50% Worf 50% Geordi LaForge 50% Data 48% Chekov 45% Mr. Scott 45% An Expendable Character (Redshirt) 45% Mr. Sulu 40% Beverly Crusher 40% Leonard McCoy (Bones) 30%

A lover of Shakespeare and other fine literature. You have a decisive mind and a firm hand in dealing with others.

Click here to take the Star Trek Personality Test

I've made a miniature playlist to work through melancholic to keep myself on the positive, I'm more that than anything underneath. I wish I could give you links to download the songs as well but most of these I've recently got via iTunes, so I'm adding some lyrics instead. So, here you go:

1: Frightened Rabbit - 'Poke'
“Poke at my iris, why can't I cry about this?"
- I was sat in Richmond Park yesterday and this came on the iPod shuffle and just clicked into my head and into the moment. FR is massively underrated as a talent, great direct lyrics.


2: Adem - 'Something's Going to Come'
“Don't look so forlorn, cos something’s going to come.”
- This song has a wonderful floating vibe drifting through with a warm heart, great stuff.


3: Eels - 'Man Up'
"In my heart of hearts,I know it well, I hit the ground hard when I fell
Not licking wounds but more like, sewing them up."
- I watched Yes Man the other day, this is on the soundtrack and that's where I heard it first. It's a great one for keeping your head up and sorting yourself out, you know you're okay really, it just hurts.

 ...If I can find a nice girl who loves Cameron Crowe films...then I'd be on the right path, he's my modern day hero!

Say Anything, Jerry Maguire, Vanilla Sky and the two wonderful, possible All-Time Top Five for me: Elizabethtown and Almost Famous.

Aaah, he's an immense writer!

Oh and he's got Zooey Deschanel in there, clever man, wonderful girl!

 Off to Wembley, well deserved tonight!!! Maybe this time, we'll do it....

 I'm in London then, West I believe. I'm nervous. I'm winging it. 

Eck!

Hey all, just updating from my phone here to pay hey all and hullo any new people :-D Im in Devon and trying to sort myself out still, many thanks for those who made book comments as well! Makes me feel quite proud :-)

 Jen and I are/have broken up.

Just in the process of sorting myself out, going to fly home tomorrow. Really hate work anyway so I have no control over that.

Packing. x

Interestingly enough, on the flight out to Exeter last weekend flying back home. I sat next to an Australian bloke from Perth and we were the only people talking. About recession and how - in his experience - is the best time for those who want something out of life because now is the time for the people who work hard to get the breaks that might not normally happen. Also, about how food in Ireland is just cooked until it's so cooked....that there's nothing left, flavour or generally...heh! Finally, about my war blog and life and stuff. He was a really friendly bloke and was visiting friends down in the SW as well. 

Oh btw, updated my LJ with theme and pics. New ones to appear here and there! :)

 I've been watching (and probably mentioned) these Belfast lads before, Cashier No.9

I just noticed they were on iTunes as well, just the single but that's the catchy little beggar and it's a personal favourite. The single is called 42 West Avenue and they've got a lot, lot more to offer!

Go seek!!

Over 200 views and not one bloody sale, you cheapskates!! It's a tenner in Britain and other rates on there, own history haha! ;) x

 Channel 4 Pub Quiz Team.

Brilliant

 So, easy decisions, in life I want:

1: A shed I can write in at the bottom of the garden - kitted out - obviously.

2: A bath I can fit in, length ways, obviously.

3: One of those whole wall/ceiling showers.

4: A proper published book. 

5: No tooth ache :p

Remember that tooth pain I had that eventually led to concussion after a meeting with too many pain killers? The one I thought was sorted?

It appears (feels) like it's back :(

....

Paris was absolutely stunning, just lovely lovely lovely.

I'll sort a proper entry out over the next few days.

Literally straight back into work though and got EIGHT days in a row....bit shite BUT saw Frank Turner last night was ace in Belfast. I'm very tired tonight, working tomorrow but then will try and recollection some sanity from a pocket of life, somewhere...

...just being lazy. I've got all this time off and actually having time just to exist...is lovely :)

Been snacking and playing PS3, drinking crap and generally having a moment to myself...heh!

Back on continual job applications later tonight, have been re-writing bits and pieces of editing to sort out and re-launching my self-published book....eventually. Trouble is, I've got about FOUR pieces of stuff I'm working on at the same time and so I end up doing none of them because I'm always thinking about one when I'm doing a different one.

It does make sense, I promise ;)

I can feel spring! I just needed to get out and get some air there as I've been cleaning all weekend and threw about 4 or 5 bigs bags of rubbish out. I was walking down to the garage to get a paper and suddenly thought...what's that feeling?

I'm utterly content and relaxed and it's light and somewhat sunny...ooh summer is nearing! :)

 ...and it's bloody REAL! I was researching something completely unrelated but I think this is real...

SELECTION:

I'm Popular. You're Not.
Use Manipulative Psychology to Make People Like, Respect, and Befriend You

I'm better than everybody.

Some people find me arrogant. Don't like that? Leave. I don't need you anyway. I have enough people desperately seeking my attention. Oh, but my massive popularity is no accident. I studied social psychology and human behavior for years to alter my personality and become a master of social manipulation and human interaction. 

Now I’m the person everybody tries to impress and wants to be seen with. I have legions of friends wherever I go. People give me practically whatever I please and it's all so easy for me. Half of the time, I don’t even have anything valuable to say, but people still just can’t get enough of me. And while jealous losers can't stand me, everyone else thinks I’m the greatest thing in the world – and they’re right, I am. 

You already know me:

-         I’m that slacker at work who gets promoted over your hard working ass

-         I’m the loudmouth talking over your best comments with useless crap to cheers of admiration

-         I’m the one who's out having a good time while you sit around thinking about ‘how great your future will be’

 

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Click thee link fo mo fo sho!

AH hem ;)

I think in 10 years it will then say....and now I'm very VERY alone because I was such a cock for so many years. Ach deary.

 I have been doing it for 5 months now, unfortunately the last two months with the crappy work all the time I've developed a way of reviewing...

I put my headphones in, turn the volume up and put the records on repeat,  rock around in my chair/room and have a few beers, it works out like a mass of freedom with words but I'm concerned that it might develop into something of a 'need'

Haar >:p

 I'm going out in Belfast...I haven't done it organised wise for aaaaaages!

Even working tomorrow but nay care, noi, innit.

Ah hem.

 ....I'm a twat, I booked some flights for Jen and I to go to Paris at the end of the month but then forgot when it was and she booked something else on the day we fly.

SO....I had to rebook the dates and now that cost me extra £100......I's now broke...ah BOLLOCKS!

Anyhoo...I'll be going to Paris! :p

 ...to show you this, that Jennifer PAINTED for me for Christmas. For those who don't know, it's from Heroes and is now a homemade canvas on my wall :D